I think I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder but I know I am not in the position to self-diagnose so I will not mention this to my Psychiatrist.

My Mum had never taken me to see a Psychiatrist because she did not want me to be labelled with a mental illness or disorder because my brother used to suffer from Depression and cut himself with knives and stuff. And it caused so much stress and pain for her that I think she didn't want to accept that I may have a mental problem too.

But eventually she took me to a Doctor and he referred me to a Psychiatrist and said it was urgent? Which I found strange because I don't self-harm. So I have saw my Psychiatrist and Social Worker once and my Psychiatrist said she will speak to me more next time and probably give me medication. She also noticed I had a fear of Abandonment just by speaking to me.

So when will I probably get a diagnoses? And I am not going to mention Borderline Personality Disorder but I am scared I will get diagnosed for Bi-Polar. If I did, would the Bi-Polar medication harm me? Because I am sure I don't have that. And do you have any idea why they said it was urgent? Because I never told them about my family history. Nor did I tell them I was suicidal (Which I'm not) I never even mentioned suicide. I just how I feel to my Doctor and he seemed concerned? But he looked at my medical history too (Which has no history of Mental Health but I have a history of migraines and unexplaned aches and pains and being badly underweight)

I get what you mean about your mom not taken you to get diagnosed, or kind of ignoring it. My mind did kind of the same thing, not wanting to get it on my sheet. I can see how that would be hard for her, but it sucks too when you don't get the help you need cause of something like that. but at least you are working on that now.

I can't understand from what you are saying why it was urgent either. Even if there was some self-harm going on, I'm not sure why it would be so urgent unless it was life threatening. and if you never mentioned suicide too... maybe they think from how you acted or what stuff you said maybe you are suicidal? i don't have any idea other than that, sorry

did they mention borderline personality disorder to you? because fear of abandonment is a symptom for a lot of disorders. I've got that to an extent, and I'm not BDP. I think if you were BDP it would have popped up earlier, because that's a pretty extensive disorder affecting all aspects of life, and to a large degree. Like, they go out of there to avoid abandonment to the point where they will try to kill themselves in a way to keep people from leaving them, and they have major mood swings at times, etc. If it's not obvious to you now, then I wouldn't think you have it. Don't be worried to mention it to them. It won't hurt you (as I think...) to get it diagnosed if you are. Better to get the help than not to. But it doesn't seem to me you are.

There's nothing wrong with being diagnosed bipolar. I'm personally Bipolar II (the highs are less extreme than bipolar I) and it's not terribly having that diagnosis. The actual disorder is a bit of a problem though, lol ^^ but if you get diagnosed that means you can get the help you need. So, you can even think of it in a good way if you get the right diagnosis. I don't think bipolar meds can harm you. Well, i guess they do harm some people sometimes, like maybe making them more suicidal? not very common though. and they watch you to make sure the meds are ok for you. And with science getting better all the time, there are pretty good drugs avialable. I'm personally on lamictal and that helps a good bit. I didn't think I was bipolar for a good bit, but when I went in to see the doc and he asked some questions about it he figured out I was. Which helped me a lot to get the right diagnosis, because it hurts more to get wrong diagnosises. So, i would suggest not worrying. It's not terrible. at least look the symptoms up online ^^ hope things work out, take care!!

you are evaluated and diagnosed on your first visit now as you keep seeing your doctor other things about you may surface and you will feel a need to tell the doctor...you mom is selfish thinking of herself and if it was so urgent they would have called you by now stop worrying ..

If it's anything borderline, it means they are not sure, so how can anyone be sure of anything?