I see a Psychiatrist & Social Worker. I am 99.9% sure I have Borderline Personality Disorder but I am not gonna mention it to them because they are the professionals.

Anyway, I am not gonna list all my symptoms and why I think I have Borderline Personality Disorder I am just gonna keep this straight to the point.

One of my many symptoms is Paranoia. But I also get weird thoughts and believe things way too easily. For example: I was told about illuminati and how all the singers and rappers worship the devil and stuff. And most people would just dismiss it. But from now on I cannot even look at pictures of a singer or rapper at night because I think they are looking back. When I am listening to songs on Youtube if they have an image of the artist I will scroll down so I don't have to see their face.

It is not just celebrities though, I am Christian but I get really paranoid about the Ghosts and think they are following me and I think I see them in the corner of my eye and hear them running up the stairs or see shadows on the walls. It makes me so uncomfortable being in my house. I have to race from room to room when everyone is in bed because I think something will grab me. I get scared closing my eyes because I think something will get close to me and hurt me. Even walking past rooms which have the light off. I think something will drag me in so I run past.

I look to the bottom of the doors to make sure I see no shadows so I know nobody is there and I always look at my window to make sure nobody is outside it. If I ever look outside my window I stop quickly because I worry that somebody I cannot see might be looking back at me.

I know pictures cannot see me, but I have to put them away so I can't see them because it feels like they are looking at me, I get freaked out looking at my own reflection too. I can't look into my own eyes because I think they're staring back. I can't look at any eyes on photos because I feel like they can see me.

When I am outside I feel like everyone is staring at me, I hardly go to school because of it and I can't go out to eat with my family because I can't sit down in a public place because I feel like they're all watching me and waiting for me to do something wrong. I shake and my heart beats fast and I go dizzy and the room feels like it's spinning round and I just want to scream.

Even in bed it takes me ages to sleep because I constantly have to look up to make sure nothing is watching me.

And these are just the symptoms of my Paranoia I think, or is this something more? These are not all my Symptoms I have many more so do not say "I don't think you have BPD" Because I haven't told you those Symptoms. I just want to know if this is just Paranoia or something else? I am going to see my Psychiatrist on March 8th.

I think it's good that you are seeking help for this. It sounds like your life would be so difficult, feeling that way all the time. I could just tell you that it's not real, but that won't help you. It does sound like paranoia, if you think people are all out to get you and talking about you, even when you have no reason to believe that they are. But when you talk about ghosts and pictures looking back at you, that could be more than paranoia. Maybe you could try to face your fears and just force yourself to look at the pictures, etc, and then you could realize that nothing bad will actually happen to you if you do. It's just anxiety. Make sure you continue going to the doctor, and I hope they can help you.

Schizophrenia? Having strange thoughts and paranoia are some symptoms.

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I've spent the past two years convincing myself that stuff like that isn't real, but then again, I'm not you so idk, if you need any advice just message my yahoo profile

it started as bipolar then became schitzoaffective, then became full-fledged schitzophrenia, now I think I'm on some sort of anxiety disorder

that sounds like paranoid delusions.
they're sometimes known as persecutory delusions.

if you're seeing things that's visual hallucinations.
if you're hearing things that's auditory hallucinations.

the part where you wrote "I shake and my heart beats fast and I go dizzy and the room feels like it's spinning round and I just want to scream" - that sounds like a panic attack brought on by the anxiety you get from your delusions.

i have info' on all the types of delusions and hallucinations.
let me know if you want it.

i tried to add you on here, but it says you don't allow it.

good luck seeing your psychiatrist.

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This doesn't sounds like Borderline Personality Disorder, but it may be paranoia, as you pointed out. Sometimes, depression or bipolar disorder episodes are severe enough that people can have psychotic features: paranoia, hallucinations, delusions, intrusive thoughts. It sounds like you're experiencing significant distress and i urge you to speak with a psychiatrist who can prescribe medications for these symptoms if necessary. Hope you're feeling better soon!